emotional slugfest..

you know your mindset when you are about to get ready for a slugfest..
deep within there's a lingering fear that it is going to be bad..
and so you get yourself ready for it..

you know it’s going to suck when it happens..
you're pretty much sentient it's gonna hurt you, big deal..
you know it’s going to make you roll over in pain
and most likely knock you off your feet..

and so it came!
it sucked!
it was bad!
i was caught unguarded!
but i didn’t get knock off my feet..
i had to take a knee and get the standing 8 count..

but i’m still in the ring and now that i’ve had some time to put
it all in perspective it sucks a lot less now..
i know i’ve got a few more of those punches coming and several more rounds..
i dunno what round is it in this emotional boxing match
but i haven’t been knocked out..
seems like in these kind of matches you rarely get to punch back..
however in my situation it is better not to do so..

i’m not gonna lay down or throw in the towel
i just know who is at ring side watching
and they don’t need to see a knock down drag out no holds barred match
so i take my punches and hide my pain from them
especially i know that the next rounds have the potential to suck worse..